I have grown in so many ways over the past few months. Mostly outward. I have developed a video game addiction. What is that, you may ask? Well, it's something I have known off and on for most of my adult life. 18+, that is. And not a little. I'm seriously addicted...again. The cycle seems to repeat and repeat, and I pretend I'm less broken than I really am. I came back because of you, though. I missed the interaction here. I have to admit I've avoided Vizzed for a long time, partly because it became an integral part of why I'm addicted instead of succeeding at my dreams (and I've had to change those). I guess you could say I am succeeding at one of my dreams by coming here: Facing my fear of my past. Vizzed gave me valuable experience that I needed. But it also ruined me...because I let it. This isn't a call for all of you to abandon Vizzed. This is a call for you to hear why I came back. Because although I no longer revere the Game Room like I once did, I do respect it as a symbol of unity. Somewhere gamers can go to play with friends, to find common interests, to play with brothers or sisters offline (as I did with my brother, and we had fun times). But fun times led to problems. And problems led to boredom. And boredom led to dreams not being accomplished. I'm one class away from graduating college...and I tried. I stayed away from excessive gaming. I wasn't addicted. Class was a (stressful) highlight of my week. But after I had to drop the class (due to, well, to put it frankly, mental deterioration), I had to rethink my life. And to do that, I turned to video games. Ni No Kuni. A fabulous game and one I held hopes upon. I hoped to get my brother into it. I failed on both counts to get him into PS3 and into that game. Again, I even got him a second controller as a gift and games I hoped we'd play together. He is no longer "grateful". Neither was I near his age. But I grew up...Until I didn't.
And my book! Too few attempts to succeed led to mental failure, again. "I can't do this," I would think after I had put in effort I felt was sufficient. It was not. I was a fool. Now I have another dream I'm pursuing. I hope to succeed, and if not, at least I tried and I grew and one day, even on the other side, I'll share this growth with others who love to learn like I do, or, more! Perhaps much more.
You have to do what makes you feel good...but don't let it consume you. Because something that was good one day may prove your destruction if you hold onto it too tightly...even your dreams, if you let them become corrupted. I've learned that again and again and again...because I'm a fool.
But I'm trying to be as good a fool as I can be now. ;-D
...and eventually not a fool.
I have grown in so many ways over the past few months. Mostly outward. I have developed a video game addiction. What is that, you may ask? Well, it's something I have known off and on for most of my adult life. 18+, that is. And not a little. I'm seriously addicted...again. The cycle seems to repeat and repeat, and I pretend I'm less broken than I really am. I came back because of you, though. I missed the interaction here. I have to admit I've avoided Vizzed for a long time, partly because it became an integral part of why I'm addicted instead of succeeding at my dreams (and I've had to change those). I guess you could say I am succeeding at one of my dreams by coming here: Facing my fear of my past. Vizzed gave me valuable experience that I needed. But it also ruined me...because I let it. This isn't a call for all of you to abandon Vizzed. This is a call for you to hear why I came back. Because although I no longer revere the Game Room like I once did, I do respect it as a symbol of unity. Somewhere gamers can go to play with friends, to find common interests, to play with brothers or sisters offline (as I did with my brother, and we had fun times). But fun times led to problems. And problems led to boredom. And boredom led to dreams not being accomplished. I'm one class away from graduating college...and I tried. I stayed away from excessive gaming. I wasn't addicted. Class was a (stressful) highlight of my week. But after I had to drop the class (due to, well, to put it frankly, mental deterioration), I had to rethink my life. And to do that, I turned to video games. Ni No Kuni. A fabulous game and one I held hopes upon. I hoped to get my brother into it. I failed on both counts to get him into PS3 and into that game. Again, I even got him a second controller as a gift and games I hoped we'd play together. He is no longer "grateful". Neither was I near his age. But I grew up...Until I didn't.
And my book! Too few attempts to succeed led to mental failure, again. "I can't do this," I would think after I had put in effort I felt was sufficient. It was not. I was a fool. Now I have another dream I'm pursuing. I hope to succeed, and if not, at least I tried and I grew and one day, even on the other side, I'll share this growth with others who love to learn like I do, or, more! Perhaps much more.
You have to do what makes you feel good...but don't let it consume you. Because something that was good one day may prove your destruction if you hold onto it too tightly...even your dreams, if you let them become corrupted. I've learned that again and again and again...because I'm a fool.
But I'm trying to be as good a fool as I can be now. ;-D
...and eventually not a fool. 
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