Singelli : Fail summon, you will want to read this.

Wow... Thank you very much for sharing this Bin-chan! Now I feel I know you a lot more. Hey, if you feel sad, feel free to talk to me. I don't mind ^^

Just stay strong and ignore those hateful words from bullies.

Bintsy I feel so bad for you right now if you need anyone to talk to I am here for you kids are rude now don't let them bring you down remember what you told me before I took my own life you told me to stay strong don't let it bother you 

Hey Bintsy. It's a bit unfortunate that this thread will probably be spammed by people pretending to read what you wrote due to it being a TdV month. However, I want to let you know that I read every word.  I did have one question..... so I'm sorry if I sound stupid, but what does it mean to 'saw off' your words?  Is that like writing sentences?

I'm glad you didn't go back to public school.  Speaking as a witness to it day in and day out:  Kids are mean.  That's all there is to it.  I can't believe that so many kids are raised without human decency, or taught to respect others.

And I'm glad you feel beautiful.  You should.  Don't let anyone take that away from you, and keep talking to God as you have been doing.  You know how my boss bullies me?  Well a few people gave me a new perspective this year.  Pray for your own strength and patience, yes... but also pray for those that bully you. It may be that there is something in their life which makes them feel the need to act the way they do. Pray for healing in their lives and for a change of heart.  Maybe your sister just needs some prayer as well, if what she's doing exceeds sibling rivalry.

If you ever need to talk, you know I'm here for you.
Love you, and I'll pray for you.

Singelli : Oh well I should of detailed that a bit more. Basically what it was me and the girl called each other a bad name and this was in 6th grade. So the secondary principle took like wood and wrote the word we said on the wood then we had to take I think sand paper and sand it off.. it took forever to get it off. Honestly I think I should of just took the paddling and had it over with. Thank you also.. I have been praying a lot and I will continue to pray. Also I appreciate you keeping me in your prayers. Yeah a lot of the TDV and this post will be spammed by them but at least I know some of my close friends did read it. Thank you Sing and I love you!



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Bintsy :  I've never heard of such a punishment before. That's... very unique. Huh.  Kinda weird but...

Yeah, I care and I'll pray. Love ya too! Keep your head up, beautiful.  *hugs*

*Sighs* Bintsy...my poor little sis.....we all have our own stories to tell that, we have difficult having to say...because we wouldn't know what others think....I am still like that but,I am a lot more opened now as I was before...but, yet still have a difficult time opening up more as...it is so hard to do...I can relate of your medication I too have that. Steroids that put on weight for me..and find it hard to keep it at tact not because of what I eat. But, because I take this everyday of my life....I am so sorry about school and your sis....I do hope for a change in her so she can start supporting you because that's what you need in life. The last thing we want is our sis or bros bully as people already have it rough at school...and about fb. thats quite similar...after the constant bullying I had and I left school for years...one of the girls who did bully me, found me on fb somehow and added me...I didn't add her back because the flash of my memories of it came back. And I became sad again. Remember bintsy.you always have us on vizzed and me your big sis. We will always help you no matter what you go through in life. It what we all meant to do help one another. Out of a deep hole we have been in. We love you we will always care for you. And your pretty don't let what those peoples words get to you as I have done...please try to fight it more...I let it get to me for 22 years without even telling anyone, how I felt about it....don't do what I did, or it...will be more tougher I guarantee that. I see...and I believe a bright future for you .Its not just a say, its a truth you will be free from all of this I believe so. ^-^

I read every bit of this and I didn't crack your screen or scare you on purpose, you jumped up on the bed when I came in and the laptop fell on your knee... sorry though, wasn't trying to scare you though and if you told me this a bit earlier I may of not done some of the things I have done, because I've been bullied to and I know what it feels like, all the things we've been through in the past year has made me tougher so I fight back or ignore... I may have not been called fat but I have been called weird and stupid and other stuff but I will admit I can be a bit weird but I'm not going to change for others just because of what they think,  you know Candace? You were asleep or on the computer with earplugs in but she brought me down a lot saying these mean phrases, you weren't there to hear it like I wasn't there to see people bullying  you... we need to talk more... know that day when I kicked her through the window? yeah she was trying to start a big fight getting into our business and i pushed her away the first time and told her to stay out of this and she came back hitting me hard on the shoulder... so i kicked her into the window  because I won't let people bring me down no more... don't let people bring you down Laura, fight back  in any way but don't let them take you down...  It will come back to those people... ever since preschool this boy Braden you may have already heard of bullied me all the way to 5th grade hitting and kicking me calling me names so this 1 day was the last day he hit me when I punched him  hard to make him remember... That girl Kacidy randomly put her hand on my face pushing me back, when we about to leave I took her down hard and made sure it hurt, I didn't hit her in the face because I thought that  may be to much but she cried but anyway I don't hold grudges, me and Braden would be goofing off and me and Kacidy would to.... like all the clicks everywhere, where I don't know where to fit in at because I wanna hang out with the girls  but their drama queens and bratty.most of them but I have made a friend and she made me feel like crap about  some stuff, and those mean girls think their better then everyone. I'm sorry Laura and I wish I could have been a better sister. Put those things behind you and look at what you got...  You got friends here on Vizzed and at least your not like the other people who are 18 and drink beer do drugs and all that other stuff... It's hard to let go of these things but you got to or it's going to drive you crazy and make you mad.. listen about that paranoia stuff.. I don't look at your stuff and I don't remember when I have, I will try to get better but  these next few days will be  nerve wrecking for me because of school coming back... because of all the  new work and I just don't fit it and I didn't come to this school because I wanted to anyway because when I sit down somewhere, some people look at me like I'm stupid or something and scoot away, makes me feel like crap because I haven't done anything wrong especially all them popular girls, I wish I could home school but I'm doing good in school even though I hate it... I plan on on my  future about how it's going to go and what  I'm going to do.... I love you so very much and we need  to talk and hang out more often because I'm always left out of things.... Just  let go of those things and let it go in one ear  and out  the other or just talk to mom about it, which would be the best  to do... Just let me know if I ever hurt your feelings because this  is 1 hard stage in life and 2013 wasn't a good year for alot of people...

SaphiraFlames :  I appreciate that but I will never agree with you saying that it wasn't your fault that my laptop cracked. I was on the phone with somebody and you came bursting in there and scared me on purpose and I will never forget it.. I may of physically done it but it was your scaring me that did it. I remember Candace and she was a bully. You need to get over her and move on.. me and her didn't click as well either sometimes and I had to hold my tongue with her most of the time. The reason I kept myself plugged in threw all of that is because every time I would be unplugged all I would hear is drama, screaming and cussing. I was trying not to cuss myself and what everyone in the house was doing wasn't helping so my best option was to hide away in my room sort of like I do now and keep myself plugged in. Music has been my escape from half of the things I have been through.
I realize how much she bullied you because I remember you crying with her being so mean to you. The time when you pushed her through the window at the time I was looking at you to blame because I thought it was your fault but I look back on it now and she provoked you and deserved it anyways. I remember a lot of your bullies from school because I know how you act usually when you get home.. and mom does talk with me about some stuff as well. I know it has been rough for all of us this 2013 because of Amy burning our car and how financial things have been rocky and stuff have just been crazy. A lot of me still wants to hide from you because I still don't trust you in some ways.. it is hard for me to let you on my laptop now a days because I do have stuff on my laptop that I keep running and I am very paranoid as it is. You used to go through my stuff and that's why it's hard for me to let you on my laptop now. I haven't talked with you about any of this stuff that's coming up next because it's hard for me to talk to you mom or Leah about anything much anymore.. because I feel like I can't. Sometimes I do tell you guys about things but it's just been so hard for me opening up. Basically I am still grieving that papa died which is not good.. I don't think about it as much anymore but I know God and papa himself wouldn't want me to be like this so upset and so sad about him leaving. I just wish I could go back and spend more time with him.. I remember the last time I tried to spend the night with him.. I got home sick and he seemed pretty upset about it. I never go any where anymore because I don't trust going somewhere half of the time. It's not the people but I don't want to hurt anybody you know. When aunt Robin passed away I felt lonely. She was only 50 and her own son said things that I would of never thought would of came out of his mouth. He is my cousin and I still do care for him.. I guess some things do happen for a reason but I loved Robin and to think that she left us so sudden makes me wonder about the rest of our family. Any minute we might lose somebody especially somebody that is close with us and cares about us.. I honestly don't think I will be able to deal with the pain of losing another family member. I think I am strong enough to handle it but amotionally I think I will break down and cry a lot more especially if it is a close member of our family. I know that Candace brought you down a lot.. I may not of heard all of the things you said but she told me things when you weren't around. I kept them to myself because me telling you would of just caused drama.. and the same with you when you told me things I kept it to myself because like I said drama. I am honestly sick of it and I just want us to get along because us fighting all the time like we do is unhealthy and we need to work on it. I love you very much and I know we have a lot to work on some things that are going to take time. I have to build up my trust with you for starters...I have lost a bit for you over the past year for some of the things you have called me.. and what you did the other night when I said you couldn't get on my laptop really hurt me. I know your not the only one at fault.. I used to cause a lot of problems with this family as well. Yelling kicking screaming fighting.. but over the last years I have started to change.. you notice how I always say to you watch your lauange over and over? It's because I use that instead of putting you down with a cuss word. I don't cuss anymore and I have changed a lot if you haven't noticed. Sense I broke up with you know who.. don't mention his name in this thread by the way, I have been a lot happier and positive. I have been praying every night and if you haven't heard me in my room late at night sometimes I talk with God like I would talk with you. I get pretty loud sometimes but I try to stay seldomly quiet. We may not be in church but God means everything to me and I won't let others bring me down. You are beautiful Lindsey and all of those other people in your class that are hurting you and being drama queens about every thing are missing out on all you have to offer. I don't ignore you but I do get tired of you banging on my door and coming into my room every day when I'm sleeping almost about every day at least. If you need something wait until I am awake and ask me.. I have changed a lot and I don't mind for you borrowing most of my things at least. As long as you return them. First off one of the things you need to do is remember that I am your sister and I care for you more than anything... the same as Leah of course. The reason me and her didn't include you in stuff growing up was because we were scare I think. Scared that you would do what you were doing before which was ruining whatever we were playing. I know you have changed and I have changed but we both have a lot to work on as a family. A lot of my friends left me if you didn't already know. They stopped talking with me and only talk to me if I talk to them first which isn't considered a friend in my opinion. I have felt really lonely a lot and Vizzed has given me a lot of friends and most of them have been there for me and made me stronger. Some give advice and some just bring me up when I am feeling down. A lot of what they don't realize is I don't mind for advice and I don't mind to be told what I need to work on or what is right in front of me. I just don't like being judged for something I didn't do or put down about things which nobody has done to me really. I have been miss understood with some of the things I have typed of course sense I type sometimes and it doesn't come out in my writing the way it comes out in my head. I have made a lot of new friends recently and I am happy now a lot more than I was being. I am sorry that I do make you feel left out or have made you feel bad at all in the past. I will try to work on being nicer or more under standing in your case sense I know you are going through a lot at school with everyone bullying you and treating you bad. One thing I want you to do is be better than them though and not be a bully yourself because all your doing is showing them that they can treat you like that and you fit in which is not a good thing. I want you to be the person you really are.. which is beautiful strong, and a amazing sister that you are even though we fight sometimes. I also want us to start talking more and being open with each other more because this us not talking to each other is going to damage us in the future if we don't try more. I think what we both need to come to grips with is Bullies are Bullies and kids are cruel and usually they don't change.. sometimes they do but I think most of the time they don't. People do change yes and I believe in that much but the thing about it is somebody is always going to tease you or call you names.. put you down or make you feel bad it's just the way life is no matter if your in school or a public event or are working at a real time job. It's just what humanity is and even though I have been down a lot the past week.. I know that all my friends are keeping me up and happy. I am sorry that I mentioned you in this thread but it seems like I have nobody to talk with and everybody is having questions about why I am upset sometimes and why I am a little werid at times as well which is another story. I do overlook some of what people type and read it wrong just like they do mine which is something I really need to work on. We probably will never get along about every single thing like we probably will disagree on something but that is what family does nobody can agree on every little thing it's just how it works. We have been growing apart for a while now which is something I have been praying about and hoping that changes. You mean the world to me and I am tired of us bickering and fighting and letting these things get in the way of our sisterhood. I just want you to know that I am going to try more and I will try to talk with you some more. I know you think I don't know half of what you are going through in school but I know almost exactly what your going through except when I was in school.. I was more talkative and just went around in all the different clicks. Like for instance I would go talk with somebody in this little group then move along to this little group and talk with somebody. I did make some friends but those friends have proven to me that they are not actually my friends sense they don't really talk to me much. I have nothing to do with my bullies anymore and that's why I want you to change because I want you in my life for the rest of my life because that is my heart and that's what I want. You are amazing and beautiful like I said before and I don't want you to ever forget that. Stop listening to all those kids at school that put you down because they are not worth it. You are going to find a friend that is going to treat you right one day. It may take a while but you are new at this school and that is what happens at first people examine you and try to figure you out. What you should do is show them that you are strong and nothing that they say is going to bring you down. Yes it is hard because I know I couldn't do half of it when I was still in school but I have so much faith that you can do it because of how strong you are. Don't let those bullies show on you.. don't let them make you feel like your a nobody or make you feel like you have no friends because you do have friends.. even if you don't think so somebody is waiting for you to introduce yourself just wait. I think we should work together and be stronger together because that is what is going to show everyone who we really are. My next plan is for us to talk more and put more effort into our relationship it may take time but I will try. It is easier typing all this to you and letting you read it because with words it's so much harder for me in some ways because I can't explain all this with words as of typing it is so much easier. I love you though and you ARE beautiful don't forget that!




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