In a thread I made a while back, I said I was given another chance tell my love my feelings, but it appears I am under a time limit. You see I may be moving in around two weeks because I may lose my home. I will have to depart with my friends. I had gave one the order to tell her if I am not at school for the first three days ,but I suddenly got a change of heart. If I do stay this may be my last time on vizzedboard, so I said t myself I'll tell her on my own. Only to be shunned down by the fact that at the end of this school year she's moving to California. She and I are moving two different states. I Texas and her Califronia. I am having a war with my emotions right now. I cried not in times of true pain and tragedy, but I do not think I can make through this. Some of my friends I have been friends with for ten years, so I told all but her what I think of my time with them. I told them they are friends worth dying for. One friend ( the one I gave the order to ) I told him that the real reason feel in love with her was because of her personality and the way she made me feel. I told him she gave me a sense of peace I have never had before. I told him I glad to have met her because if a hadn't I may still have a heart consume by hatred. I told him she opened my heart from it's dark imprisionment. That it to me half a school year to figure out I was in love with her, and now know that she and I may never meet again, I feel heart broken. That's why I must tell her myself. I can't fight with my emotions any longer.

mr.pace : Well I think many people can relate to what you’re going through especially going through school and such but if you don’t tell her how you feel it will eat at you. It might be easier for you to keep in touch with her than it would be for two people twenty years ago. You have the internet to keep in contact. I would just come out and let her know how you feel and see what happens from there. If nothing else you won’t feel guilty about not saying anything and that will give you peace of mind.



Long distance relationships can be difficult especially if you’re in school but if she feels the same way about you as you do about her I would give it a chance…

Ok, even though that was a gush of emotion, it was good. You bled out, now its time to apply the medicine and bandage. Im not so good with relationship stuff, but I know that whatever crap you're going through, its the same crap we all go through day in and day out. Just don't lose yourself.

"Stay sane inside insanity." You oughta be fine. Just keep on going man.

Hello again
Hey, I've been through this type of thing. It's hard, I know, but you'll pull through. I did. It was kind of hard to accept at first, but then you just gotta move on. I'm sorry. That's really all you need to know.
I had to move away too, and I also had someone that I had a crush on for a very long time. It's one of the painful moments in my life, but you've got a lot ahead of you in life, so you should just look to the future. You should definitely tell her at some point if you want to go with no regrets. It'll get even harder knowing that you never told her anything about your feelings. Just go for it. Now is your chance. You shouldn't even care about what she thinks now. Just tell her. I'm sure she'll understand your situation.
And hey, maybe you two can keep in touch somehow. Hope everything turns out alright.

Believe me when I say I didn't say anything that my emotions told me. If I did I would me banned right now. You see unlike most people I now how to control my emotions. I don't like letting my emotions get in the way of my work. I know most people say suppressing your emotions is unhealthy, but it is how manage to cope with the pain. When I say a war between emotions I mean between anger and love. She help me to come out of a deep hatred for people, and so I'm angry because I don't want to lose her or the peace I've obtained. In truth my friends know nothing about me. If a person could read minds they would still know nothing about me. I keep my thought and my inner raged hidden from people. I don't like making people feel empathy toward my problems. That is why I don't usually let people help me with anything. Though I do thank all of you for you support. I feel as though as long as I can stay on vizzedboard I can keep the peace I've obtianed. You people are exceptionally good people.

I know you have your friends and Vizzed to confide in, but if this is truly the way you feel, then you shouldn't be telling us, you should be telling HER. Go for it. If the time is ticking then you have to throw for the endzone.

I suppose you're right. I should be telling her but, I'm wavering away. For some reason the hatred that I had though was gone forever has come back. I don't know what triggered it but, like I said. I don't like my emotions getting in the way of my work. I believe I am going to tell her sometime in the near future. The question is how? I don't know how to tell and, I don't know when but, just as God gave me life on this green planet, I will find away to do what I got to do.

mr.pace : Well I hope that you do tell her how you feel… It is never good to keep emotions good, bad, or, indifferent bottled up though. It can be a source of stress and can end up being very unhealthy just as ignoring a physical ailment would be unhealthy. I can relate to wanting to keep work a priority because work almost every week out of the year under normal circumstances.

It is difficult to juggle your priorities when you work a busy schedule but at the same token your relationships family, friend, or, romantic should not be compromised at the same time. As I said before telling her how you feel regardless of the outcome will give you peace of mind in the long run because at least you’ll know that you told her how you felt and you won’t dwell on it wondering what might have been.

Best of luck to you.

She and I have been talking to each other lately, and I even went to some christian club with her at school. Last week I told my friend to text her saying I needed to ask you something, so the next day she came to talk to us and my friend said did you get my text. She said yes and asked me what the question was, but just as I was about to tell what I wanted were to do she told me my shirt was buttoned up wrong. I said no it wasn't. Then she told me to hold her stuff, so I did. Then she unbuttoned my shirt to button it back up the way she wanted. My friends and I laughed as well as she. Now this week she hasn't spoke because she's trying to tell one of my friends something, but she won't because I'm there. It makes me curious what type of secret she could tell him that she won't tell me, her best friend, but I still laughed on with my friends about crazy guy stuff.