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09-14-20 07:14 PM
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Ten years. Wow. It's crazy to think about.
I've been thinking about this for a long time. It's been a decade on Vizzed, a site that has witnessed every aspect of my adulthood. Going through time, and looking at my posts, gives you such an accurate portrayal of how my life has progressed over the years. I nearly died in a race, I dropped out of college, I got kicked out of my parent's house. I fell in love. I moved in with my grandmother and became a shut-in for a number of years. I adopted a miracle cat. I broke up with the person I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with. I found someone else. I moved to California. I went back to college. I got my first real job. I got my degree. I moved back to the east coast, and got a much better job. I got married. I moved again (to where, I'll leave hidden, I've said it somewhere else I'm sure). I got an EVEN BETTER job. I'm looking at home ownership, and very possibly children in the next couple of years. My life has been an absolute rollercoaster over the past decade, and all of you on Vizzed have been witness to it. You've also been witness to the darker side of "Leggy". I elaborated on this a little earlier in my most recent thread, which you may or may not have already seen. For those who have not been around for the whole experience, or for those who were not aware, I'll outline some of those things, so that I can more accurately come to peace with the darkness that's brewed inside me for the past decade. I have wronged a lot of people, and in a lot of different ways. Friends, adversaries, all kinds of people. I've lied, I've manipulated, and I've been controlling in a lot of aspects of my life. And there are people who have broken out of that cycle, and can confirm the tale for themselves. It's not that I'm a master of any sort of manipulation, but I was a bastard and definitely a bad person, and there were lives that I have affected. In a way, that's an unfortunate legacy of my own. As someone who cares a lot about being remembered, I have to understand that means the negative parts as well. Most of these lies and deceit came out of boredom. Nothing else. Like I said earlier, I became a shut-in for a long period of time, and this was when I was probably at my worst, socially speaking. I got bored. So I wanted to play games. And not just any games, the most tricky games of all. I wanted to better understand human hearts and human emotions. So by playing with them, I came to understand better how they worked. I didn't do so because I had any grand purpose. I was just bored and passing time. There were people who didn't experience this. Largely because I didn't think they were worth my time and energy. Some people got off "lucky" in this regard. Because they were completely irrelevant to my world view, and I couldn't be bothered to try and understand their hearts for one reason or another. All the same, this group of people often got offended that I "hated" them or something. To hate, you have to care. And I didn't care. So apologies to those who felt I hated you, there's only two people in this world I hate, and none of them are reading this right now. I often invoked the name of God, and prided myself on being "just" in a lot of manners. This was false providence. When I saw no reprecussions for my actions, I kept doing them. The worst I ever got was a slap on the wrist, and a reminder that what I was doing was wrong. It didn't matter how many times I said I understood, it was never truly punished, and I was always welcomed back to start the cycle over. I also threw "love" around a lot. Both at people I did actually "love" and at people I didn't, and often times when I was actually involved with someone else. This was probably my greatest crime, if I'm being honest, as love is the one thing I actually give a s*** about. I lived my whole life to be surrounded by people who loved me. After attempting suicide at age 18 (three times), I realized that I needed more support in my life. So what's a better support system than those who love you? As a result, I used "love" to get people to surround me, and it actually worked for a long time. Too long, actually. Over the past decade, the amount of people I've said "I love you" or something similar too, is far too long for me to properly recall, and that I don't remember even half of these people is truly a travesty, when you consider just how many people were genuinely hurt (and they let me hear it). I imagine there are more people that hate than love me at this point, but this never really bothered me a ton, because as you know, "the opposite of love isn't hate, it's apathy". It's when people don't care at all that I get truly scared. A lot of my friends were caught in the crossfire. I say that term pretty loosely, because I can't actually say I know them that well, and I don't really speak with anyone from my past all that much anymore. Once the group I was with dissolved and we all went our separate ways, I made a small discord server (which I'm bringing back, by the way) that I I'm not proud of what I've done. I'm sure my mother wouldn't be either. I'm hoping that one day I can become a good person, so the praise she heaps on me is actually deserved. She always says I'm doing so well, but I'm struggling with a lot of demons, and it really hurts that I feel I need to hide it from her, and from the rest of my family, that thinks I'm so well put together. I'm constantly wandering, looking for a place to call home. Both in mind and in body. I haven't found it yet, but I keep thinking I'm getting closer and closer. What's become clear though, is that I can't find home if I'm always looking back, or looking online. I need to advance, and find something new that strikes a chord. I'm getting closer every day. You might be confused by all of this. That's fine. The past decade has essentially been a decade long performance, and I'm just ready to finally take a bow, and leave it all behind. The acting, the performing, the playing, and all of that. These apologies I posted, and this confession I'm writing right now are the final act of said performance. If I've managed to make you feel anything at all, then my job as a performer and a writer are done. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I've been wholly fake or inauthentic. I've actually been quite candid when asked, and there are bits and pieces of me that are for certain, true. But the persona I have built over 10 years is a facade, and that's something I think we can all identify with. Facades keep us safe, and allow us to better act with the courage we wish to act upon in our own real lives. This persona gave me strength, and allowed me the power of anonymity. If I f***ed up, I could always go somewhere else and start again, unlike in real life, where your past follows you everywhere you go. The consequences of what I've done will always rest with me though. As will the damage I've done to my reputation. Especially now that I've decided to air it all out, and leave things bare on this, my final moments as "Leggy". It's been ten years, but it's time for the persona to die, and for myself to emerge from this, hopefully as a better person. By casting off anonymity, and by casting off the lies and deceit, I'm hoping I can be the person I wanted to be 10 years ago. Now I just finally have the courage to do it, is all. So this is my final post/ There is a long list of people I'd specifically like to thank, but none of them are present any longer. The void will have to do, as the people who most need to see this have long since departed. You know who you are, if you stumble upon this one day, while searching in the old memory banks. If you still want to try to keep in touch, use your brain. My location is never a secret, you just need to know where to look. Goodbye, and thanks for the fish. I'll see you all on the other side. ~Leggy I've been thinking about this for a long time. It's been a decade on Vizzed, a site that has witnessed every aspect of my adulthood. Going through time, and looking at my posts, gives you such an accurate portrayal of how my life has progressed over the years. I nearly died in a race, I dropped out of college, I got kicked out of my parent's house. I fell in love. I moved in with my grandmother and became a shut-in for a number of years. I adopted a miracle cat. I broke up with the person I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with. I found someone else. I moved to California. I went back to college. I got my first real job. I got my degree. I moved back to the east coast, and got a much better job. I got married. I moved again (to where, I'll leave hidden, I've said it somewhere else I'm sure). I got an EVEN BETTER job. I'm looking at home ownership, and very possibly children in the next couple of years. My life has been an absolute rollercoaster over the past decade, and all of you on Vizzed have been witness to it. You've also been witness to the darker side of "Leggy". I elaborated on this a little earlier in my most recent thread, which you may or may not have already seen. For those who have not been around for the whole experience, or for those who were not aware, I'll outline some of those things, so that I can more accurately come to peace with the darkness that's brewed inside me for the past decade. I have wronged a lot of people, and in a lot of different ways. Friends, adversaries, all kinds of people. I've lied, I've manipulated, and I've been controlling in a lot of aspects of my life. And there are people who have broken out of that cycle, and can confirm the tale for themselves. It's not that I'm a master of any sort of manipulation, but I was a bastard and definitely a bad person, and there were lives that I have affected. In a way, that's an unfortunate legacy of my own. As someone who cares a lot about being remembered, I have to understand that means the negative parts as well. Most of these lies and deceit came out of boredom. Nothing else. Like I said earlier, I became a shut-in for a long period of time, and this was when I was probably at my worst, socially speaking. I got bored. So I wanted to play games. And not just any games, the most tricky games of all. I wanted to better understand human hearts and human emotions. So by playing with them, I came to understand better how they worked. I didn't do so because I had any grand purpose. I was just bored and passing time. There were people who didn't experience this. Largely because I didn't think they were worth my time and energy. Some people got off "lucky" in this regard. Because they were completely irrelevant to my world view, and I couldn't be bothered to try and understand their hearts for one reason or another. All the same, this group of people often got offended that I "hated" them or something. To hate, you have to care. And I didn't care. So apologies to those who felt I hated you, there's only two people in this world I hate, and none of them are reading this right now. I often invoked the name of God, and prided myself on being "just" in a lot of manners. This was false providence. When I saw no reprecussions for my actions, I kept doing them. The worst I ever got was a slap on the wrist, and a reminder that what I was doing was wrong. It didn't matter how many times I said I understood, it was never truly punished, and I was always welcomed back to start the cycle over. I also threw "love" around a lot. Both at people I did actually "love" and at people I didn't, and often times when I was actually involved with someone else. This was probably my greatest crime, if I'm being honest, as love is the one thing I actually give a s*** about. I lived my whole life to be surrounded by people who loved me. After attempting suicide at age 18 (three times), I realized that I needed more support in my life. So what's a better support system than those who love you? As a result, I used "love" to get people to surround me, and it actually worked for a long time. Too long, actually. Over the past decade, the amount of people I've said "I love you" or something similar too, is far too long for me to properly recall, and that I don't remember even half of these people is truly a travesty, when you consider just how many people were genuinely hurt (and they let me hear it). I imagine there are more people that hate than love me at this point, but this never really bothered me a ton, because as you know, "the opposite of love isn't hate, it's apathy". It's when people don't care at all that I get truly scared. A lot of my friends were caught in the crossfire. I say that term pretty loosely, because I can't actually say I know them that well, and I don't really speak with anyone from my past all that much anymore. Once the group I was with dissolved and we all went our separate ways, I made a small discord server (which I'm bringing back, by the way) that I I'm not proud of what I've done. I'm sure my mother wouldn't be either. I'm hoping that one day I can become a good person, so the praise she heaps on me is actually deserved. She always says I'm doing so well, but I'm struggling with a lot of demons, and it really hurts that I feel I need to hide it from her, and from the rest of my family, that thinks I'm so well put together. I'm constantly wandering, looking for a place to call home. Both in mind and in body. I haven't found it yet, but I keep thinking I'm getting closer and closer. What's become clear though, is that I can't find home if I'm always looking back, or looking online. I need to advance, and find something new that strikes a chord. I'm getting closer every day. You might be confused by all of this. That's fine. The past decade has essentially been a decade long performance, and I'm just ready to finally take a bow, and leave it all behind. The acting, the performing, the playing, and all of that. These apologies I posted, and this confession I'm writing right now are the final act of said performance. If I've managed to make you feel anything at all, then my job as a performer and a writer are done. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I've been wholly fake or inauthentic. I've actually been quite candid when asked, and there are bits and pieces of me that are for certain, true. But the persona I have built over 10 years is a facade, and that's something I think we can all identify with. Facades keep us safe, and allow us to better act with the courage we wish to act upon in our own real lives. This persona gave me strength, and allowed me the power of anonymity. If I f***ed up, I could always go somewhere else and start again, unlike in real life, where your past follows you everywhere you go. The consequences of what I've done will always rest with me though. As will the damage I've done to my reputation. Especially now that I've decided to air it all out, and leave things bare on this, my final moments as "Leggy". It's been ten years, but it's time for the persona to die, and for myself to emerge from this, hopefully as a better person. By casting off anonymity, and by casting off the lies and deceit, I'm hoping I can be the person I wanted to be 10 years ago. Now I just finally have the courage to do it, is all. So this is my final post/ There is a long list of people I'd specifically like to thank, but none of them are present any longer. The void will have to do, as the people who most need to see this have long since departed. You know who you are, if you stumble upon this one day, while searching in the old memory banks. If you still want to try to keep in touch, use your brain. My location is never a secret, you just need to know where to look. Goodbye, and thanks for the fish. I'll see you all on the other side. ~Leggy |
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09-14-20 08:41 PM
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Pretty impressive last speech I'd have to say. I've been following your last adventure here for awhile, so I knew this was inevitable, however it's still a bit sad to see your departure.
For me, you were actually the backbone of Vizzed, in my concept of it. Though we haven't necessarily gotten along that well for several years, I cherish the ones where we did, and your presence has always been a reminder of what once was here. Your brief return along with Alex, made me see hope in a site, that if we're being honest, has been a shell since long before my own return two years ago. There's something to that notion I think. It doesn't matter who I meet or when, there's a portion of me who wants to recapture 2011 - 2012. Maybe my life was better then? Maybe I felt more included, more directed? Or perhaps it's just general nostalgia smearing the true reality of that period for me. You have in fact absolutely broken a good many people, at least their image of you was shattered. However, I completely understand your reasoning under the logic given here. It's easy to be an a**h*** on the internet, I've screwed around with people too, just most of them weren't here. Amends will never be enough for some, but in my opinion, just about anyone should deserve a chance for redemption. You hear things like "I already tried that." or "They had their chance." Well, for some people, it takes a bit longer to make the sort of improvement you'd need to truly redeem yourself. I think that sort of thing is just too much for many people to understand. It's often the case that someone will form a particular judgement of you, then never relent on it, no matter what you do. I've also experienced this first hand many times. I'm really glad to see you've made your life into something you can enjoy, and built the confidence in yourself to remove your veil. I was there during your suicidal phase, and I really did worry about you. Maybe I was too young to know how to respond to it, but you were my friend, and I considered you important. Either way, I'm proud that I ended up this way, and your presence will be sorely missed. Goodbye Leggy. For me, you were actually the backbone of Vizzed, in my concept of it. Though we haven't necessarily gotten along that well for several years, I cherish the ones where we did, and your presence has always been a reminder of what once was here. Your brief return along with Alex, made me see hope in a site, that if we're being honest, has been a shell since long before my own return two years ago. There's something to that notion I think. It doesn't matter who I meet or when, there's a portion of me who wants to recapture 2011 - 2012. Maybe my life was better then? Maybe I felt more included, more directed? Or perhaps it's just general nostalgia smearing the true reality of that period for me. You have in fact absolutely broken a good many people, at least their image of you was shattered. However, I completely understand your reasoning under the logic given here. It's easy to be an a**h*** on the internet, I've screwed around with people too, just most of them weren't here. Amends will never be enough for some, but in my opinion, just about anyone should deserve a chance for redemption. You hear things like "I already tried that." or "They had their chance." Well, for some people, it takes a bit longer to make the sort of improvement you'd need to truly redeem yourself. I think that sort of thing is just too much for many people to understand. It's often the case that someone will form a particular judgement of you, then never relent on it, no matter what you do. I've also experienced this first hand many times. I'm really glad to see you've made your life into something you can enjoy, and built the confidence in yourself to remove your veil. I was there during your suicidal phase, and I really did worry about you. Maybe I was too young to know how to respond to it, but you were my friend, and I considered you important. Either way, I'm proud that I ended up this way, and your presence will be sorely missed. Goodbye Leggy. |
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This is a really amazing display of honesty. And I applaud you (going with the metaphor here) for making the decision to move on from vizzed and keep improving. I am very happy that things have gotten better for you since a decade ago, and I am praying that your life will continue to get better as you go. Thank you for taking the time to make this post.
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The amount of honesty here is something really unique.
I'd like to say a long and detailed opinion on this, so I'll be brief. Maybe I was one of the people you didn't care about, and I don't judge you, the moments we had together, was my old, depressed self, 7 years ago, and while I don't remember any kind of situation, which you may had hurt me, I can say that you have helped me in the past, like I mentioned to you previously, I decided to visit Vizzed again because OF YOU. If I were fooled or not, I don't know, and neither do I care, because back when I was on Vizzed, I showed the first signs of depression, and dealt with it by making a thread here, and being able to feel the "thrill of the competition", made my mind stay away from negative thoughts, and focus on having a good time. Maybe you only dealt with me because it was an "obligation" on your part (considering I got into some games you made), but at least, it was worth at the time, I can proudly say: "I was around Vizzed on it's golden age.", and while I'm about to vanish from the site again, it was worth coming back to see how you changed, and now you are ready to face your future as the real you.w w While I can say that my life situation (except deprssion) haven't changed in the way I'd like, I am hopeful for the future, and I can feel it close, and I just have to keep going on, and I hope you can continue going on as well. I'm not sure if we'll ever meet again, considering (at least on my opinion) we don't know each other enough to truly call each other... "friends", considering we live in different countries, and your interests was very different from mine, but even if we're not really friends, you are a little part of my life, and while we may lose each other, I'll never forget you, Jake. Lost, but never forgotten. May your future from now on be brilliant, everyone deserves to be happy. Fare thee well, Zebra Leggy. I'd like to say a long and detailed opinion on this, so I'll be brief. Maybe I was one of the people you didn't care about, and I don't judge you, the moments we had together, was my old, depressed self, 7 years ago, and while I don't remember any kind of situation, which you may had hurt me, I can say that you have helped me in the past, like I mentioned to you previously, I decided to visit Vizzed again because OF YOU. If I were fooled or not, I don't know, and neither do I care, because back when I was on Vizzed, I showed the first signs of depression, and dealt with it by making a thread here, and being able to feel the "thrill of the competition", made my mind stay away from negative thoughts, and focus on having a good time. Maybe you only dealt with me because it was an "obligation" on your part (considering I got into some games you made), but at least, it was worth at the time, I can proudly say: "I was around Vizzed on it's golden age.", and while I'm about to vanish from the site again, it was worth coming back to see how you changed, and now you are ready to face your future as the real you.w w While I can say that my life situation (except deprssion) haven't changed in the way I'd like, I am hopeful for the future, and I can feel it close, and I just have to keep going on, and I hope you can continue going on as well. I'm not sure if we'll ever meet again, considering (at least on my opinion) we don't know each other enough to truly call each other... "friends", considering we live in different countries, and your interests was very different from mine, but even if we're not really friends, you are a little part of my life, and while we may lose each other, I'll never forget you, Jake. Lost, but never forgotten. May your future from now on be brilliant, everyone deserves to be happy. Fare thee well, Zebra Leggy. |
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You've been around for a long time, if you need to get your life back in shape then all the power too you. I feel you went down a path I might have gone down once upon a time. Except you went down the wrong way unfortunately. What is fortunate however is you finally learned, something that gives a lot of respect from me. Whether you abandon Leggy and go under a new name, none of us ever knowing who you are when you go elsewhere, I only pray you are happier.
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Meh, Reading all of that just made me fell apathetic.
I'ts hard for me to really put thoughts into words.. so bear with me. I personally feel our "relationship" on here has been a weird one.. Probably stemming from two people just posting out of boredom and curiosity, I'm also aware of how little significance I probably have in your time here also. It's good you've advanced in life, and reflection is important. I do however feel this post is redundant. If most(if not all) of the people affected by your actions in this self reflection aren't here to witness it, whats the point? Neither are the people that you want to acknowledge/ like. I personally hope that after this you actually try to reach out to some of these people if you actually give a s*** about what you've written. (or at least you tried when it happened) It's almost like it was written for self gratification. but meh The ironic beauty of how "leggy" this post is, is truly beautiful. I'ts hard for me to really put thoughts into words.. so bear with me. I personally feel our "relationship" on here has been a weird one.. Probably stemming from two people just posting out of boredom and curiosity, I'm also aware of how little significance I probably have in your time here also. It's good you've advanced in life, and reflection is important. I do however feel this post is redundant. If most(if not all) of the people affected by your actions in this self reflection aren't here to witness it, whats the point? Neither are the people that you want to acknowledge/ like. I personally hope that after this you actually try to reach out to some of these people if you actually give a s*** about what you've written. (or at least you tried when it happened) It's almost like it was written for self gratification. but meh The ironic beauty of how "leggy" this post is, is truly beautiful. |
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Wow, I can't believe you're finally leaving. I did the same for a very long time, and I'm still kinda absent to a significant extent (just kinda depressing to see this place so dead honestly), but you're a lot like me in the "putting on a fake persona" regard. I'm sure those who knew me, and you, and the "Droog Embassy" we helped create right here on Vizzed can attest to that. Nevertheless it's still sad to see you depart for good. You are one of my oldest friends on here and I may have had my own ups and downs in Vizzed history but I can't remember any conflicts springing up specifically between us. Hopefully we can talk again soon - I would definitely be interested in joining the Discord server if you happen to see this. |
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04-24-21 03:13 PM
Davideo7 is Online
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I'm finally just reading and responding now. I saw it when you posted it but I wanted to read it in its entirety and not just skim through it. It was important for me to take it all in the way it was intended to be taken in.
That's a very deep post. A window to the mind of possibly the most influential user to ever use these forums. If there was ever proof that you've grown, that was it. It's been so long since you and I have chatted. For a while. you were my go to guy and the user I chatted with the most. It's been many years though but I always appreciated the feedback and input you gave me. And I returned the favor by helping keep you legacy alive (I'm pretty sure I mention you more than any other user on this site and no other user have I given such a unique "randomly appearing" custom user name). I've recently been swimming in the hauntings of my own "sins". Finally going through my PMs, I'm filled with regret and shame for having to put aside communications and friendships with users who use to chat with me often but slowly stopped due to my lack of or delayed responses. Some of the messages were sent by kids who have to read my responses as adults. It's embarrassing and I myself have no idea how many bridges I've unintentionally burned but your post inspires me to do something similar, even if the harm I did to others wasn't intentional, it still hurt the community and destroyed some of the friendships I had, which I did cherish. Anyways, this isn't about me, it's about you. I pray that your life takes you down the right paths. Farewell old friend. That's a very deep post. A window to the mind of possibly the most influential user to ever use these forums. If there was ever proof that you've grown, that was it. It's been so long since you and I have chatted. For a while. you were my go to guy and the user I chatted with the most. It's been many years though but I always appreciated the feedback and input you gave me. And I returned the favor by helping keep you legacy alive (I'm pretty sure I mention you more than any other user on this site and no other user have I given such a unique "randomly appearing" custom user name). I've recently been swimming in the hauntings of my own "sins". Finally going through my PMs, I'm filled with regret and shame for having to put aside communications and friendships with users who use to chat with me often but slowly stopped due to my lack of or delayed responses. Some of the messages were sent by kids who have to read my responses as adults. It's embarrassing and I myself have no idea how many bridges I've unintentionally burned but your post inspires me to do something similar, even if the harm I did to others wasn't intentional, it still hurt the community and destroyed some of the friendships I had, which I did cherish. Anyways, this isn't about me, it's about you. I pray that your life takes you down the right paths. Farewell old friend. |
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